Eager to see which one of your friends messaged you.
"Useless broadcast message".
Frustrated you throw your phone back against your bed.
"How did I get here?" There's nothing to do on a Friday night, after a stressful week.
You go through your contacts, bored, and you start to realize something. "I chill with these people on a daily basis on weekdays at university, I should see what they're up to."
One by one they answer always starting with "sorry" they're all busy or have plans of their own. You see if any of your cousins are free and surprisingly you get the same answers.
You realize how all these people are mere acquaintances, you have no one to turn to. But you can't stay home. So you go to a local cafe and keep yourself entertained.
Looking back to the old days when you were part of a clique you remember the fun times you used to have, and wonder what happened.
The truth is you'll never have that somebody that spent all their time with you unless they have no one else. That's the way it is. Loneliness is inevitable, the people at university don't share your beliefs or likes and dislikes so it's difficult to befriend anyone like you used to.
Feeling alienated in your own country is nothing to be ashamed of, There are people that feel at home away from their native countries, things happen, and they happen quick. But with time you realize something, Giving up on your oldest friends because of stupid/small issues is not the "healthiest" of ideas. But it's too late now, advice usually comes to us later after we've messed up, the best thing to do is to move on and start fresh.
No one will ever be that perfect puzzle piece that you look for so hard through the pile just to find in the end, that one piece that fits in perfectly and ends our frustration doesn't exist, People are not puzzle pieces they're far more complex than that.
But never give up on yourself, because sooner or later things will work out, even if it works out more or less, it'll still be enough for satisfaction. we all learn that with time because Patience is truly a virtue and in most cases we'll come to see that this whole time being patient was our problem. We should also learn how to deal with people and society, not to put all our eggs in one basket mainly. This way the next time we trip, they don't all fall and break.
So go out there my dear readers, talk to people and socialize to your heart's content, but keep in mind the cruel nature of people, and the fragile nature of yourselves, play it safe and steady until things are all Ok again.
God forbid one day we won't need people to feel good about ourselves. . .
- "Knowing how to be solitary is central to the art of loving. When we can be alone, we can be with others without using them as means of escape"